ಶನಿವಾರ, ಜುಲೈ 12, 2008

/whois /me

i have read many blogs of friends/random ppl about writing 'whoam i' type of posts. Yes! i understand. This is because importance to 'identity' itself is been great these days. Many people think a lot about all these factors, what is the goal of life, am i doing enough, am i doing it right?, how much better can i get? what are my roots? is it correct for me to do this? well, lot of questions and notice that 'i' is involved in everything. afterall, 'i' is 'me' for everyone, and 'me' is a very important factor.

I have noticed one thing. This 'whoam i' type of questions bothers people who change their life style, who shifts environments, like people coming from village to town, town to city, city to metro, metro to travel abroad etc.. If you stick to one type of environment, you are -almost- not bothered about all these things because, you are always used to stuffs surrounding you. Mostly thats the reason why elders keep complaining about the change in culture, youth going out of control, we complaining that current day kids are not like us (when we were kids), we say they miss 'growing up in 80s' factor etc. Well, everybody has something or other to say about change, and obviously change is inevitable.

i avoid considering questions which takes some energy to give answer, like "whoam i?" (to your knowledge, energy and giving answer has direct relationship, ofcourse because brain is involved, which takes ~40-50% of bloodsupply, and equal or more amount of energy than whole other body parts combined). I try to think less, and be lazy most of the time. hence, i prefer to go with my instincts. I don't think about future much, hence no savings or anything, similarly maths is getting out of my head gradually, and so i don't take any worry about investment, returns, finance management etc. I don't like options, i hate buffet lunch, because i feel like eating everything, and i can't decide whats good for me.. i would like to order 'same for me' or 'make it two' type-ish when i goto restaurants, (ofcourse i order drinks myself, as that doesn't require second thoughts :p)

but today, i ate bit more, and had slept for some extra hours, so had some energy to spare on brain cycles. also it was sometime since i wrote something here.. so took up this question "Whoam I?", "where can i relate myself".

unlike many people i see, questioning themself like this and ending a post without concluding, i know well what i am. well, i know by heart, by head (and even by body :O) i belong to village, to be specific, belong to 'malenaDu'. I grew up playing with trees, eating raw fruits plucked directly from tree, climbing hills, playing chinni-daanDu, bugri, goli, kusti (well, this was unofficial game in our primary school :O), marakothi and many more similar games. I never liked going to school as a kid. Whole of our village at that time had just one TV (it had ~20 houses), i never had TV at home till i entered jnv. We used to have lot of time, and it was complete fun. 1-4th, my school was nearby, just 0.5miles from home. in 5th it was 1miles away, and 4months it used to rain a lot, so we used to goto school covered in plastic covers, i think one year i got a raincoat too, but i tore it, hence not got any more raincoats.

Life took a serious turn when i got selected in jnv entrance test. (well i wrote the test for not passing it :p)

next 7 years i spent in JNVGajanur, and it takes a whole new post rather a book to tell about that life. i learnt a lot in jnv. not just syllabus, but also sports, and -computers-,

i will stop here about what happened with me in past and try to get answer to 'what am i or who am i', type of question. Well, i grew up as a kid without much restriction at home, hence learnt responsibility, but never learnt working under somebody else. I can respect someone for their capability, but i don't like the idea of working under someone full time. taking challenges was always a thing i liked. I am a listener most of the time, don't like arguing, i have my own explaination, way to do things. I don't get bothered if people say something about my style, my dress, my language, or anything. i like world peace, like a quite place, my mood swings very fast, but overall avg stays well within normal to happy state. like travelling, nature always amazes me, and keeps reminding me how small i am.. love to learn new things, try out new things. never get bothered because my communication skills are bad, or i am not so good technically. i am not an atheist, but can't say that i believe in god, or follow a religion. I like Hinduism, just because other religions never attracted me and never was required for me. i am open with my eating and drinking habbits and never say no to experimenting, the food i don't like are red meat and bland food.

if you don't know me, you may feel i am little reserved and not very talkative.. but be aware, if you are well within my close circle, you will be saying 'nilsale' (ie, stop it man) most of the time.

well, my energy is almost compensated for the day. i will stop now.. drop me a comment if you need more :D (well, you can comment even otherwise)

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